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<blockquote data-quote="pruman91" data-source="post: 1688584" data-attributes="member: 3916"><p>[ATTACH=full]13709[/ATTACH]</p><p><em><strong>Top of the morning to you all............................It's 2:42 am here in Paducah and I'm going to have my first cup of coffee on this glorious day ......A full pack of Camel 99's and Marlboro Menthol 100's close by......The one hitter is loaded and ready for action..................</strong></em></p><p></p><p><strong><em>NL's # 2 and # 3 are upstairs in bed snuggled up and sleeping off the evening's oral discussion and deep tissue penetrating sessions with smile's on both their faces.....I sometimes feel like giving the "" Tarzan "" yell to express my complete happiness in my extraordinarily wonderful life.......My beautiful daughter called me this afternoon thanking me for the xmas card and $$$ I sent her .........I love my daughter more than life itself and the most important thing in my life's wishes is for her complete happiness in life as she had such a tumultuous childhood it's a wonder she has turned out as such a level headed and caring person......................................</em></strong></p><p></p><p><em><strong>As I look back on my 7 decades of carbon unit existence here on planet Earth , I sometimes play the "" what if "" game .............What if I had done this differently or not done that ........................Do you ever do that ????................Is it therapeutic or just a whimsical attempt of folly to cheer up a broken heart or melancholy mood ???.....................Seems to me that the more I play the "" what if "" game , the less confident and happy I feel .........Risk/Reward doesn't seem to enter into the equation anymore..........I don't play that game as far as my life now , with the NL's in my life...........No , I go all the way back to the earliest know memories of childhood and try to piecemeal facts of my childhood with decisions I made later on ........</strong></em></p><p></p><p><strong><em>I was a jock as early as I can remember .....My dad said I always had a ball in my hand and wanted to throw it at something ....Usually a wall and catch it coming back at me.....Sports was my entertainment choice and such an easy one to make........When I stayed with my grandparents on my dad's side , they owned a country grocery store and i marveled at the size of baloney sandwiches that grandma made for me....the baloney was always at least an inch thick , with American cheese and some Miracle Whip........A nickel glass bottle of coke with salted peanuts poured in to it and stand back and watch the fizzing going on......They had a twine system that allowed them to just reach up and pull down the twine , cutting it in the process on a razor blade grandpa had put in place after the order was wrapped for the customer........grandma would make a rim out of cardboard and tape it to the wall and already had made a large tape basketball for me ....I used to run around the store and always ended up shooting that tape ball at that cardboard rim .....It was so much fun for a 5-6-7-8 yr old brat like me ...........</em></strong></p><p></p><p><em><strong>My grandparents on my mom's side lived on an island game refuge ...............It was like having a zoo always close by ....up to 2 million geese on the island cornfields during migration, with 40-60 deer at a time running everywhere.........all kinds of other animals , but you get the picture ....I had a wonderful life as far as me visiting my grandparents ...................................</strong></em></p><p><em><strong></strong></em></p><p><em><strong>The decisions we make at the time usually are spur of the moment and didn't receive due diligence....I'm not talking about buying a house or things like that.......I'm talking about the little decisions that always add up to bigger decisions that end up affecting your life , marriage and overall peace of mind....</strong></em></p><p><strong><em>If you have that peace of mind in your life then consider yourself one of the lucky ones....it wasn't until I became a manager and had to lead over 100 people in a demanding sales environment that I truly got to see that we all are alike .....we all have problems and we all have solutions to our problems that maybe weren't so well thought out or were just plain stupid attempts to be more happy...........Seeing that in other people didn't make my life easier as like a light bulb going off in my head .....It brought me down seeing that trait in mankind was no different than my failed attempts at a better life for me and my loved ones......I know I am rambling here now , but it is a relief to be up and typing this message to you all.........</em></strong></p><p></p><p><em><strong>Baby steps..........I heard that when my ex was going through her trials and tribulations........her recovery from alcohol that lasted 5 minutes ........</strong></em></p><p><em><strong></strong></em></p><p><em><strong>I bring up baby steps because I know I learned a lot from the programs and they weren't directed at me ............Now , when a decision has to be made I talk to trusted friends about it........friends who i know love me and care for my happiness.........Then i take their opinions and weigh the facts and only then make a decision.......mundane topics like , going to the store and taking a shower are decisions i still can make on my own , thank you very much , but the older you get the somewhat major decisions afford little recourse for recovery if you make a bad decision.....</strong></em></p><p><em><strong></strong></em></p><p><em><strong>I just had a big chuckle at the decision of getting a washer and dryer that took me forever to decide .....And i look back on it now and kick myself for not doing it sooner and I ignored a trusted friend who kept telling me it was a good decision for me to make.......</strong></em></p><p></p><p><strong><em>NL # 2 and # 3............................</em></strong></p><p></p><p>[ATTACH=full]13710[/ATTACH] [ATTACH=full]13711[/ATTACH]</p><p></p><p><strong><em>are calling my name , so I must attend to whatever needs they have.....After all , it's a decision I made to all 4 of my NL's and I wouldn't want to disappoint any of them .........Tell me , did I make the right decision about my NL 's ?????...............I think I did ...............I really really do......................</em></strong></p><p></p><p>[ATTACH=full]13712[/ATTACH]</p><p><em><strong>A big win by the Illini...........a great night with my NL's ....................a phone call from my wonderful special human being daughter...........</strong></em></p><p><strong><em>Oh , what a world....................................</em></strong></p><p></p><p>[ATTACH=full]13713[/ATTACH]</p><p></p><p><strong><em>have you ever made a bad decision that still haunts you to this day ????????.....................Please , release the bad karma......forgive yourself and move on from it...........................everyone does it ........................EVERYONE..................................</em></strong></p></blockquote><p></p>
[QUOTE="pruman91, post: 1688584, member: 3916"] [ATTACH type="full" alt="OIP (13).jpg"]13709[/ATTACH] [I][B]Top of the morning to you all............................It's 2:42 am here in Paducah and I'm going to have my first cup of coffee on this glorious day ......A full pack of Camel 99's and Marlboro Menthol 100's close by......The one hitter is loaded and ready for action..................[/B][/I] [B][I]NL's # 2 and # 3 are upstairs in bed snuggled up and sleeping off the evening's oral discussion and deep tissue penetrating sessions with smile's on both their faces.....I sometimes feel like giving the "" Tarzan "" yell to express my complete happiness in my extraordinarily wonderful life.......My beautiful daughter called me this afternoon thanking me for the xmas card and $$$ I sent her .........I love my daughter more than life itself and the most important thing in my life's wishes is for her complete happiness in life as she had such a tumultuous childhood it's a wonder she has turned out as such a level headed and caring person......................................[/I][/B] [I][B]As I look back on my 7 decades of carbon unit existence here on planet Earth , I sometimes play the "" what if "" game .............What if I had done this differently or not done that ........................Do you ever do that ????................Is it therapeutic or just a whimsical attempt of folly to cheer up a broken heart or melancholy mood ???.....................Seems to me that the more I play the "" what if "" game , the less confident and happy I feel .........Risk/Reward doesn't seem to enter into the equation anymore..........I don't play that game as far as my life now , with the NL's in my life...........No , I go all the way back to the earliest know memories of childhood and try to piecemeal facts of my childhood with decisions I made later on ........[/B][/I] [B][I]I was a jock as early as I can remember .....My dad said I always had a ball in my hand and wanted to throw it at something ....Usually a wall and catch it coming back at me.....Sports was my entertainment choice and such an easy one to make........When I stayed with my grandparents on my dad's side , they owned a country grocery store and i marveled at the size of baloney sandwiches that grandma made for me....the baloney was always at least an inch thick , with American cheese and some Miracle Whip........A nickel glass bottle of coke with salted peanuts poured in to it and stand back and watch the fizzing going on......They had a twine system that allowed them to just reach up and pull down the twine , cutting it in the process on a razor blade grandpa had put in place after the order was wrapped for the customer........grandma would make a rim out of cardboard and tape it to the wall and already had made a large tape basketball for me ....I used to run around the store and always ended up shooting that tape ball at that cardboard rim .....It was so much fun for a 5-6-7-8 yr old brat like me ...........[/I][/B] [I][B]My grandparents on my mom's side lived on an island game refuge ...............It was like having a zoo always close by ....up to 2 million geese on the island cornfields during migration, with 40-60 deer at a time running everywhere.........all kinds of other animals , but you get the picture ....I had a wonderful life as far as me visiting my grandparents ................................... The decisions we make at the time usually are spur of the moment and didn't receive due diligence....I'm not talking about buying a house or things like that.......I'm talking about the little decisions that always add up to bigger decisions that end up affecting your life , marriage and overall peace of mind....[/B][/I] [B][I]If you have that peace of mind in your life then consider yourself one of the lucky ones....it wasn't until I became a manager and had to lead over 100 people in a demanding sales environment that I truly got to see that we all are alike .....we all have problems and we all have solutions to our problems that maybe weren't so well thought out or were just plain stupid attempts to be more happy...........Seeing that in other people didn't make my life easier as like a light bulb going off in my head .....It brought me down seeing that trait in mankind was no different than my failed attempts at a better life for me and my loved ones......I know I am rambling here now , but it is a relief to be up and typing this message to you all.........[/I][/B] [I][B]Baby steps..........I heard that when my ex was going through her trials and tribulations........her recovery from alcohol that lasted 5 minutes ........ I bring up baby steps because I know I learned a lot from the programs and they weren't directed at me ............Now , when a decision has to be made I talk to trusted friends about it........friends who i know love me and care for my happiness.........Then i take their opinions and weigh the facts and only then make a decision.......mundane topics like , going to the store and taking a shower are decisions i still can make on my own , thank you very much , but the older you get the somewhat major decisions afford little recourse for recovery if you make a bad decision..... I just had a big chuckle at the decision of getting a washer and dryer that took me forever to decide .....And i look back on it now and kick myself for not doing it sooner and I ignored a trusted friend who kept telling me it was a good decision for me to make.......[/B][/I] [B][I]NL # 2 and # 3............................[/I][/B] [ATTACH type="full" alt="cm153.jpg"]13710[/ATTACH] [ATTACH type="full" alt="ll09.jpg"]13711[/ATTACH] [B][I]are calling my name , so I must attend to whatever needs they have.....After all , it's a decision I made to all 4 of my NL's and I wouldn't want to disappoint any of them .........Tell me , did I make the right decision about my NL 's ?????...............I think I did ...............I really really do......................[/I][/B] [ATTACH type="full" alt="6a00d8341c730253ef01b7c71842b5970b.gif"]13712[/ATTACH] [I][B]A big win by the Illini...........a great night with my NL's ....................a phone call from my wonderful special human being daughter...........[/B][/I] [B][I]Oh , what a world....................................[/I][/B] [ATTACH type="full" alt="37984_original.gif"]13713[/ATTACH] [B][I]have you ever made a bad decision that still haunts you to this day ????????.....................Please , release the bad karma......forgive yourself and move on from it...........................everyone does it ........................EVERYONE..................................[/I][/B] [/QUOTE]
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