Man, I'm torn. I love the Illini, especially hoops, but don't like how it impacts my mood/day at this point. While it can bring great joy, it also heaps on the sorrow...a bit of a self-reflection post below. Wondering how others Illini fanatics "deal" with it, and when/how you chose to step back a bit in your fandom or lean deeper into it?
I think I'm going to look at hoops games differently going forward this season starting this weekend with Wisconsin as my expectations have changed a good deal, even though all hope is not lost. I no longer expect us to challenge for the BIG, nor go super deep in the tourney (hope I'm wrong!) A good goal should be to return to respectable basketball the team and fans can be proud of again and make the post season. For now I'm hoping to see some improvement in team ball and effort/hustle from game to game.
Probably similar to many others on here I'm thinking I can't get as hyped up so much pre-game as the inevitable emotional crash and in-game watching frustration/depression is unhealthy with the current incarnation of this team.
I'm planning to go into what had traditionally been my "Illini football mode" by every mid-season in losing years, where I'll DVR the game and start sometime mid game or even after the result and fast forward through each snap/commercial (the hoops version skipping the free-throws/timeouts). Less emotional build-up; less frustration. Looking for positive signs to be happy about, and hopefully not impacting the rest of my day which emotional losses can tend to do. I've never reverted to this in a hoops season, but it may be time.
To be clear, I'd much rather be in peak live/die with every moment, watch evert minute live with the game thread up, soak in all the pre/post game content mode that I had hoped this team would make enjoyable...but for now I think I need to manage my blood pressure
Here's hoping I can get back to full-viral fan mode by the end of the season as our chemistry and effort improves, but if it doesn't well things could easily go further off the rails. Up to the players and coaches from here I suppose as usual; as a fan I might need to ratchet my commitment back a bit...
Anyone else struggle with this dynamic of wanting to fully support vs. managing mental health? I know many of your are much more involved/passionate so can only imagine your mood swings. Tips on staying positive & engaged from any die-hard super-fans out there?
I'm sure Pru will recommend the herb